Will the sun continue to rise for me?

Didn't sleep too too well last night. Many thoughts going through my head. All kinds of stuff. This is often the case the night after a hard run, as I'm a little achy, and adrenalin still flows through my body waking me up many times.

From a running standpoint, there were three predominant thoughts: Desire - Scared, All smiles.

DESIRE- Still feeling the high of realizing within the very first 1/2 mile of my race simulation on how bad I actually want this sub 3 in Boston. It was beyond words. Being sidelined going to the pool to simulate running was really demoralizing. Pretty much 90% of my friend base is an athlete, runner, cyclist, triathlete. It's so hard, actually impossible to not hear, read, see them all. I was much closer than you think think of just scrapping Boston for this year. The run yesterday was amazing in many ways. It felt like Christmas. And driving over to see and hear about 15+ teammates' morning was a fantastic feeling. Felt so good to be part of them again.

SCARED - I'm lying here in bed, need to take my dog out for his walk. I've touched and lightly massaged the problem area. I've moved my leg/knee to try and see if I did any bigger damage, now that it's a day later. The initial real test will be just as soon as I'm done with this and take my dog for a walk. Those 10mins were telling every morning before so I'm sure I'll get a good sense of things then. It's weird. I've been up since 3:30 just thinking(was asleep by 9:15) about this and I'm curiously scared to get up and go find out. Im also scared of what will come tomorrow. Also scared in a way, because I'm
completely undecided on hopping back in the pool or jumping on the roads again for tue/wed/thurs. I hate beig disappointed like I was when I only was able to run a mile before, so something keeps telling me to just hop in the pool and crank out workouts in there.

ALL SMILES - I still can't get over how happy I was yesterday. Not only during the run, where I was seriously running on completely exhausted legs but my mind produced a smile that just kept me going. It was an amazing feeling! Those smiles continued all day long and into the evening.

Like a great sunrise, I really hope that yesterday was the start of good things to come.




Ok, time to walk Karma and see if the knee submits and formal complaints to the governing body.